Slaygon - Absence of Faith (Semper Dubito)

1 other remix of Absence Of Faith

20th anniversary for this song.


I wrote a loooong thing about having a lack of faith in stuff, and then I accidentally pressed back in the browser and … voila… all was gone. Half an hours worth of pondering each word's meaning and weight. Gone.

Where does that leave me? Why of course; A lack of faith in technology! It should have understood I didn't mean to do that! Stupid machine!

In any case, the feeling I had writing this song in the first place is still lingering - I still have no faith. In a lot of things; Politics, relationships, friendships… myself…

Apart from one thing these 20 years has tought me; There are a few things that do last, namely friendships. Thank you for proving me wrong! You know who you are! Love you!

As for the song itself, I know I should have put more effort on the track.I guess, in its current state, it reflects my level of faith, mostly in myself;
* It was a long time ago I could call myself a guitar player, but I did make an effort to make them sound decent. Took me a long time to practice just for this, and I have already forgotten all of it.
* I'm lazy. You can even hear a doorbell ringing during recording of the acustic bits.
* I'm no bass player. It could have been more varied, and I would have made it so had I known how to.

Tried to maintain the despair and hopelessness I felt while writing the original in this, yet with a touch of hope.

All in all - This is a tribute to my 20 year absence of faith.


Semper Dubito

2 c64 charts September 2009